I don't dream, but when I do...

by Jeanna
(Tampa, FL )

I have ADHD, ODD, and Bipolar. I hate having all of these things. I am also deaf in my left ear. I have a really bad nerve and anger management problems. I'm only 16 and was diagnosed with it at 13 1/2 but was told that I may have had it all my life because of all the symptoms I had when I was real young.

I am supposed to be taking Adderall, and some other things especially for my mood disorder and medications for sleep; but I am still kind of in denial. I don't want to have everything wrong with me! I even think I have OCD because I have a thing where I always have to have doors closed. I didn't tell the doctor because I don't want to be diagnosed with anything else so I can look like some crazy person.

To start my story; I told the doctor I don't dream, and he said its impossible and I just forget what I dreamed before waking up. That's not true! because I don't dream, but once in a blue moon I do. When I do, I remember everything. I remember having a dream that my sister (who was 16 at the time), got pregnant and went to the hospital while me and my mom weren't home.

That same day my mom picked me up from school and I told her my whole dream...in detail. About two days later, me and my mom came home and my sister wasn't there. Guess where she was? at the hospital....pregnant. My mom looked at me and said, "How did you know that was going to happen?" At the time, she wasn't even showing and you couldn't even tell she was pregnant...so I couldn't have just made it up.

It was REALLY a dream. If I were to tell you my personality (which you could probably already guess because I have ADHD, Bipolar, ODD, AND I'm partially deaf). But if I were to even start, I would keep you all day...because I am sometimes too confused at the way I am. I'm just me...I can't even explain it...